Sensitive?

I've come to discover that I'm really sensitive about my hearing or lack thereof. I get it that it's funny sometimes when I don't hear that you insulted me, but it being the butt of every joke in my apartment because of it, well....it gets old. And fast. And I think that's why I stopped being at the apartment so much. And I hate being center of attention. I hate being picked on and made fun of. It was never something that I quite got over from that oh so lovely experience in middle school the day that I met Anna. It was something that Anna and I was working on before she died. And when she died, I didn't see the point of trying anymore. I really didn't and I still don't. I know it sounds childish and immature, but it still hurts my feelings sometimes and if I act like a drama queen, it's not that I'm trying to, but it's just because it stings. It makes me think that maybe my hearing is getting worse. But now is not the time for it now that i am not currently in school and without insurance. I don't have a job nor car. So I don't have the money to get my hearing tested. I don't know. I just makes me question....well...everything. My friendships and my relationships. I don't know. I just don't know.