scared

It is so crazy what life throws at us. Two of my friends are breaking up and they've been together for so long and we have all expected it to be all happily ever after. And they are like Alix and I. They have pets together and they have a place together. But yet, they don't have a future together anymore. And it scares me that Alix is going to wake up one day and realize that she doesn't love me anymore. But it wouldn't be just her that I would be losing, granted, it would be devastating, but I would also be losing Sophie and our future together. I wasn't that girl who had her wedding all planned out at the age of 10. I was getting dirty and riding bikes. And even when I was dating Earl, he would talk about marriage and kids and I didn't want that with him. But when I met Alix, that all changed. Now, I cant wait until we can get married and have kids (although the number is still up for debate haha). You always take the things you care most about, for granted and you don't know what you have, until it is too late. I guess I'm lucky that I've realized it before I've lost it. I have the most amazing girlfriend and the most supportive parents ever. They help us pay the bills...they don't have to but they do. And Alix's parents? OMG. They are the best too. As far as coming out goes, this is the second best scenario (the absolute best scenario would be that all parents in this didn't pretend one of us wasn't gay haha). But nonetheless, we have it so good and we take it for granted.

I know it's crazy that I haven't posted in awhile. But you know, things get so crazy. I can't believe though that I never talked about my suspension and my fight to get back into school and all that. But yea, I got suspended and couldn't do the following spring semester. During this time, I worked with Sharon and I did so many things to prove that I was ready. I really wish that I had written during that time to be able to better convey the emotions that I went through to get to here. But eventually, I got back into school that following Fall semester. I don't think I have ever fought so hard to stay in school. In high school, I never really cared for school. But here I was, fighting to be able to continue my education. My goal was all B's. I made two A's and B. How crazy is that? But now, I'm back in that fighting position. I am taking English 11o2 for the third time, and it is a little bit easier this time around, but who knows? I am anxious to get the semester over with already and I am only half way done. But I am more determined than ever to stay in school. I can't be a counselor of any kind without a degree.

As mentioned in the previous post, I am walking in the 3 Day this year. I hope this will inspire me to write about the journey and the training. As we complete training for the day, I hope not only to keep track of it on my page, but as well as here. It is in hopes that you will see how committed I am to this cause, and in turn, will inspire you to donate. :)

Foxs Trotters

Alix and I have teamed with Mom and Nichelle under the existing name of Foxs Trotters. Walking 60 miles in 3 days. It seems like a lot, but with the training we will be doing, I have faith in us. So please help. Give what you can. A dollar, a hundred dollars. Every bit counts. The goal, as you can see is $2,300, but if possible, I want to raise so much more than that. I know so many people who have either had it and won the fight or had it and lost the fight, and I want to put an end to that, and with your monetary donations, I can do just that. My mom had the hard part of fighting to win against breast cancer, but I couldn't do anything to help her. 60 miles in 3 days? I CAN DO THAT.