scared

It is so crazy what life throws at us. Two of my friends are breaking up and they've been together for so long and we have all expected it to be all happily ever after. And they are like Alix and I. They have pets together and they have a place together. But yet, they don't have a future together anymore. And it scares me that Alix is going to wake up one day and realize that she doesn't love me anymore. But it wouldn't be just her that I would be losing, granted, it would be devastating, but I would also be losing Sophie and our future together. I wasn't that girl who had her wedding all planned out at the age of 10. I was getting dirty and riding bikes. And even when I was dating Earl, he would talk about marriage and kids and I didn't want that with him. But when I met Alix, that all changed. Now, I cant wait until we can get married and have kids (although the number is still up for debate haha). You always take the things you care most about, for granted and you don't know what you have, until it is too late. I guess I'm lucky that I've realized it before I've lost it. I have the most amazing girlfriend and the most supportive parents ever. They help us pay the bills...they don't have to but they do. And Alix's parents? OMG. They are the best too. As far as coming out goes, this is the second best scenario (the absolute best scenario would be that all parents in this didn't pretend one of us wasn't gay haha). But nonetheless, we have it so good and we take it for granted.