What brings this up you ask? I haven't a clue. When I woke up today, I knew it was going to be an interesting day. And yet it was uneventful til I got back to my dorm and was taking quick nap before going out for a friend's birthday...and the fire alarm went off. How lovely is was to be awaken by strobe lights and a HORRIBLE blaring sound this school calls an alarm.Then I went over next door and got ready to go out. And I thought, 'Every day brings me closer to being 20. I won't be a teenager EVER again.' And for some reason, that scares me to no end. I've realized that I do NOT enjoy the concept of getting older. If I could stay 19 the rest of my life like Bella, I would be all over that. What about 21? I don't drink nor do I ever care to. Let's face it, I don't want to grow up. I want to find me a vampire who will turn me into one, so I'll always be 19. BUT chances are, if I haven't found one in the last 19 years, I'll probably won't in the next 78 days. Oh yes, I don't want to turn 20 but I'm counting down to it.
I wish I had my person here. They would help me a lot!
When I first started doing this several days ago, I was weary about being so open. I was also weary of linking the site from Facebook where many of my friends on Facebook don't know that I am bi. But as I've said before, if they can't love me for who I am, then they were never really my friend. I feel a lot more at ease with having the link on my Facebook.
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