Friday, April 03, 2009

I'm an idiot

Today I told Sammy that I was bi. And I have been worrying for nothing. She didn't care. She didn't care!! She said that I am too much of her best friend to let that come between us. It's more of a relief than I can put into words. I felt bad when she said that I must have not know her that well. But I like to think that I do know her quite well. But I guess I allowed this own guilt of keeping a secret like that from her for so long that I couldn't see that she would still love me anyways. You guys don't even know how relieved I am though. I can only hope that my parents take it as well. I plan on telling them, I just have to know that right moment to do it, ya know? I know I'm closer to telling them than I was back in October.

Heidi and I are talking again. She was talking about wanting to do a girls' day out, just me and her, and just catching up. I hope she means it, cuz I love Heidi. She is my best friend and my sister. I can't imagine losing her. Which is why I am so grateful that our parents are best friends, because without them, we wouldn't be best friends anymore and I know that. That's why I cherish every moment I can get with that girl.

I went to CCF tonight like I always do every Thursday. It was a good night. Here's some of my notes:
LIVING SACRIFICES
Acts 2:40-47
Romans 12:1-2
1. God is the Creator, Owner, and Designer of our bodies.
Genesis 1:26-27
1 Corinthians 6:19-20

2. We must become a living sacrifice.
Romans 12:1
How can we become a living sacrifice?
The Sacrifice of Isacc
Live life to the fullest through Him
True worship is laying all your mind, strength, body, and sould down at the altar of God and
living through Him
Do the best to your ability at giving God the glory

3. When God is fully in control of our lives then nothing is impossible.
Luke 1:37
Philippians 4:13

3 Prayers:
Break/ruin my heart O God
Heal me O God
Use me O God

And then Stephen said something that made me think....
he said that if we devote ten minutes a day to the Word of God and two hours to Facebook/Myspace/Twitter, etc., then we have a problem. We need to spend the time that we spend being on Facebook or whatever, reading the Word and learning more about our God and not who did what three days ago.

I have been thinking alot about getting baptized. I've wanted to do it awhile actually, because I want to reborn again in my passion for God and for Christ, but I never could figure out the right time to say anything to Jason. Well, that time came last Thursday. After the Shane & Shane Concert, Jason talked for a few minutes and then, he mentioned how a group of students were getting baptized in the next month. That's when I got goosebumps (and I was sweating). THAT was when I KNEW God was telling me that I was ready, that now is the time. So, because I didn't get a chance to talk to Jason after the concert, I emailed and I told him that exact same thing as the above. And we are gonna talk tomorrow more about it. I am pretty excited about it. I'm going to try and talk to my parents about it this weekend when I go home.

Well, I think that's all about I can write for now...Laterz

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